WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN GOING ON?
AT BEANA CHAOS, WE DON’T PRETEND TO HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT.
WE’RE NOT SELLING PERFECTION.
WE’RE HONORING THE TRUTH: BEING HUMAN IS HARD AS HELL SOMETIMES.
HERE, WE CRY, LAUGH, SCREAM, HEAL, REFLECT, AND START OVER — ALL IN ONE PLACE.
SOME DAYS YOU’RE THE CALM. SOME DAYS YOU’RE THE STORM.
AND THAT’S OKAY.
THE POINT IS — YOU SHOWED UP. YOU WOKE UP. YOU’RE TRYING. AND THAT’S WORTH EVERYTHING.
WHAT IS BEANA CHAOS?
BEANA CHAOS IS A LIFESTYLE BRAND, PODCAST, JOURNAL, AND MOVEMENT THAT WAS BORN OUT OF VULNERABILITY — AND BUILT THROUGH CREATIVE SURVIVAL.
FOUNDED BY JA’NYNA MILLER AKA NYNA, THIS SPACE EXISTS TO REFLECT THE CHAOS THAT MAKES US — NOT BREAK US.
INSPIRED BY THE SUPERIOR STRENGTH IT TAKES TO PULL YOURSELF OUT OF YOUR OWN SHADOWS, BEANA CHAOS IS HERE TO SHINE LIGHT ON THE HARD STUFF: MENTAL HEALTH, MOTHERHOOD, GRIEF, REBIRTH, SELF-DISCOVERY, IDENTITY, TRAUMA, TRANSPARENCY AND TRANSFORMATION.
Why “Beana Chaos”?
Because chaos isn’t the enemy — it’s the beginning of creation. Beana Chaos is about embracing mess, exploring meaning, and finding courage in confusion.
WHO TF IS NYNA?
ME HOE.
BEANA CHAOS IS MORE THAN A NAME. IT’S MY MIND, HEART, AND SOUL EXPANDED — A SPACE I’VE BUILT FOR OTHERS TO GIVE AND RECEIVE, TO FEEL SEEN, AND TO FEEL LESS ALONE.
THIS BRAND WAS BORN FROM MY TRUTH: A WOMAN COMING FROM A BACKGROUND OF GENERATIONAL TRAUMA, NAVIGATING MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES, SURVIVING DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, AND SLOWLY, STEADILY RETURNING TO HERSELF.
IN 2019, I WAS DROWNING — TRYING TO LIVE UP TO UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS, PRETENDING I HAD IT ALL TOGETHER, QUIETLY UNRAVELING. I LOOKED FOR A WAY OUT. I WANTED THE PAIN TO END. THROUGH THE YEARS, I MANAGED TO KEEP MY HEAD JUST ABOVE THE WATER. BUT IN 2022, EVERYTHING SHIFTED. I HAD MY FIRST DAUGHTER. AND IN THAT MOMENT, SOMETHING IN ME SAID: “NO MORE HIDING.”
SINCE THEN, I’VE CONTINUED GROWING — NOW A MOTHER OF TWO DAUGHTERS, A CARETAKER TO TWO FUR BABIES, AND A WOMAN CONSTANTLY LEARNING HOW TO HOLD SPACE FOR HERSELF AND OTHERS IN AN EVER-CHANGING WORLD.
OUR MISSION
TO BUILD COMMUNITY BY GRADUALLY GRASPING AT ACCEPTANCE FOR WHO YOU TRULY ARE.
WE CREATE WITH PURPOSE — TO SPARK SELF-LOVE, SPREAD AWARENESS, AND REMIND YOU THAT IT’S OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY.
We hold space for:
the vulnerable
the healing
the confused
the creating
the starting over
the doing-your-best
beana chaos is a space for all individuals — no matter your background, identity, or emotional state. whether you’re here to cry, laugh, jump for joy, or scream into the void… who gives a shit? you’re allowed to free it all!
TO BUILD COMMUNITY BY GRADUALLY GRASPING AT ACCEPTANCE FOR WHO YOU TRULY ARE.
FAQs
WHAT IS BEANA CHAOS?
Beana Chaos is a creative community built around reflection, storytelling, and shared chaos. It’s a space where we explore healing, creativity, and connection through writing, prompts, classes, and conversation.
DO I HAVE TO BE A WRITER OR AN ARTISTS TO JOIN?
Not at all. Beana Chaos is for anyone curious about healing, creativity, or reflection. Your presence is enough.
HOW DO I JOIN?
Join the Open Window for free.
Step deeper into the Unraveled Room for exclusive content and community experiences.
Do I have to share my personal story to be part of this?
No. You’re welcome to engage in whatever way feels safe. You can read, write privately, or participate in community spaces — there’s no pressure to expose more than you want to.
Is this therapy?
No. Beana Chaos is not therapy. While the reflections and prompts can feel healing, this is a creative and reflective space, not a substitute for professional mental health care.
Can I stay anonymous?
Yes. You can use any name you feel comfortable with when engaging in community spaces.
What’s the difference between the Open Window and the Unraveled Room?
Open Window: Our free members’ lounge. It offers Chaos Wall reflections, gentle prompts, community notes, and sneak previews.
Unraveled Room: Our paid members’ space with exclusive reflections, deeper prompts, behind-the-scenes PODCAST, EVENTS, notes, and extended creative practices.
What kind of content can I expect?
Raw reflections from the Chaos Wall
Creative and healing prompts
Gentle reminders + encouragement
Member exclusives (Unraveled Room)
Updates on upcoming projects, events, and classes