WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN GOING ON?
AT BEANA CHAOS, WE DON’T PRETEND TO HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT.
WE’RE NOT SELLING PERFECTION.
WE’RE HONORING THE TRUTH: BEING HUMAN IS HARD AS HELL SOMETIMES.
HERE, WE CRY, LAUGH, SCREAM, HEAL, REFLECT, AND START OVER — ALL IN ONE PLACE.
SOME DAYS YOU’RE THE CALM. SOME DAYS YOU’RE THE STORM.
AND THAT’S OKAY.
THE POINT IS — YOU SHOWED UP. YOU WOKE UP. YOU’RE TRYING. AND THAT’S WORTH EVERYTHING.
WHAT IS BEANA CHAOS?
BEANA CHAOS IS A LIFESTYLE BRAND, PODCAST, JOURNAL, AND MOVEMENT THAT WAS BORN OUT OF VULNERABILITY — AND BUILT THROUGH CREATIVE SURVIVAL.
FOUNDED BY JA’NYNA MILLER AKA NYNA, THIS SPACE EXISTS TO REFLECT THE CHAOS THAT MAKES US — NOT BREAK US.
INSPIRED BY THE SUPERIOR STRENGTH IT TAKES TO PULL YOURSELF OUT OF YOUR OWN SHADOWS, BEANA CHAOS IS HERE TO SHINE LIGHT ON THE HARD STUFF: MENTAL HEALTH, MOTHERHOOD, GRIEF, REBIRTH, SELF-DISCOVERY, IDENTITY, TRAUMA, TRANSPARENCY AND TRANSFORMATION.
WHO TF IS NYNA?
ME HOE.
BEANA CHAOS IS MORE THAN A NAME. IT’S MY MIND, HEART, AND SOUL EXPANDED — A SPACE I’VE BUILT FOR OTHERS TO GIVE AND RECEIVE, TO FEEL SEEN, AND TO FEEL LESS ALONE.
THIS BRAND WAS BORN FROM MY TRUTH: A WOMAN COMING FROM A BACKGROUND OF GENERATIONAL TRAUMA, NAVIGATING MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES, SURVIVING DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, AND SLOWLY, STEADILY RETURNING TO HERSELF.
IN 2019, I WAS DROWNING — TRYING TO LIVE UP TO UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS, PRETENDING I HAD IT ALL TOGETHER, QUIETLY UNRAVELING. I LOOKED FOR A WAY OUT. I WANTED THE PAIN TO END. THROUGH THE YEARS, I MANAGED TO KEEP MY HEAD JUST ABOVE THE WATER. BUT IN 2022, EVERYTHING SHIFTED. I HAD MY FIRST DAUGHTER. AND IN THAT MOMENT, SOMETHING IN ME SAID: “NO MORE HIDING.”
SINCE THEN, I’VE CONTINUED GROWING — NOW A MOTHER OF TWO DAUGHTERS, A CARETAKER TO TWO FUR BABIES, AND A WOMAN CONSTANTLY LEARNING HOW TO HOLD SPACE FOR HERSELF AND OTHERS IN AN EVER-CHANGING WORLD.
OUR MISSION
TO BUILD COMMUNITY BY GRADUALLY GRASPING AT ACCEPTANCE FOR WHO YOU TRULY ARE.
WE CREATE WITH PURPOSE — TO SPARK SELF-LOVE, SPREAD AWARENESS, AND REMIND YOU THAT IT’S OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY.
We hold space for:
the vulnerable
the healing
the confused
the creating
the starting over
the doing-your-best
beana chaos is a space for all individuals — no matter your background, identity, or emotional state. whether you’re here to cry, laugh, jump for joy, or scream into the void… who gives a shit? you’re allowed to free it all!
TO BUILD COMMUNITY BY GRADUALLY GRASPING AT ACCEPTANCE FOR WHO YOU TRULY ARE.